The Crowd with their Ghost from the Past

                You see an old friend who you never ended the friendship the way you wanted, it was all typical with the common phase: Stop talking to each other. She was with the group of people you knew for years but never liked yet you greet time with courtesy. Here and then she smiles or the others, she won’t be bothered. Before you don’t really care but now, you realize everything is just a stupid game that everybody’s in it, but there’s no one to play. So as you were reaching out for her, trying to get her attention, she looks straight up and walked off with another jerk you always thought was, a jerk.

                Then you tilt your head and say, “Hey, that was me.”

On Wednesday, a friend of mine, AL got offended when I clarified myself that I only forgive but never forget. Although the tone was all pure and nothing sarcastic, it reminded her of someone and to her, same line, same bitch to the words. Then, it got me into thinking, wondering that even though that was said some time last year, is the past still in the present?

                One of the friends I lost after New Year’s was the one friendship that swept past my feet the whole year without me realizing. I was younger, more reckless, bolder in anyway and truthfully, I would have hated myself then. Sometimes being immature is something, and being over confident is another. At that age of 14, I thought I was a little caught in between. So here’s two years later, do she still hate that bitch who never stopped complaining, talking and being a complete fool of herself?

                I always loved looking back at the photographs that were taken back then and my whole past come flowing in front of my eyes. So there were the old friendships, the bitches who made me who I am today, the guys I used to have a crush on and my favorite, the enemies. Yet as time passes and people change, if things happen once again, will it ever be the same?

                How can we hold onto grudges that happened so long ago? Should we continue bitching and passing out the past when it should be long gone? And how long until a new drama comes to kick off the anecdotes of many years? Could we for once, forgive and start over?

                Stating many lies and through everything, everyone will have new friends, new people to back stab and old ones you forget. Let’s just say it’s a new year and everything else should be too, should we swim into a sea of memories then pull out the plug to flush them all down the drain?

                How long is it for you to move one and how long more for you to fall back into the ones who made you shed a tear?

                Leave a comment, and until next time, I’ll continue with The Crowd with their Ghost of the Present.